It’s been nearly two months since my last post, but in addition to my annual social media fast in August, there’s been a few things going on in Jackson Five World. My husband accepted a new job in Chattanooga, Tennessee, and although I haven’t been longing to leave the D.C. area nor given much thought to living in Chattanooga before the last six or so weeks, I’m pretty on board with it. Not surprisingly, our sons are NOT. Except for a brief, fun, beach-filled eighteen months in Florida, Northern Virginia is all they’ve known. They love their friends at school, in sports, at church, and in our neighborhood. Why on earth would they want to leave? Yet we are. December will bring a whole new life, and I’m hoping and praying that sometime next spring they ALL three will be able to say, “You know Mom and Dad, you were right, we LOVE it here!”
Because I believe God hears our prayers, and I’m asking God to make it a smooth transition for them — that they’ll keep and cherish the irreplaceable friends here, and add more in Chattanooga. The thing is if you have lived a life open to God’s leading and direction, then you’ve seen Him provide and orchestrate your life in ways that can only be explained in supernatural terms. Just recently I was praying about something very, very specific, and very, very big. It was the kind of prayer where you might be tempted to think, “God could do this, but probably won’t.” I feel totally convicted about not praying those prayers at all. And I feel like a miserable lukewarm wretch when I pray them only half believing that He could do it. Because I know deep down that nothing — absolutely nothing — is impossible with God (Luke 1:37),
But I also live in a world where many feel and live defeated. I live in a world that is marked by death and destruction, one where beautiful marriages fall apart, where The Fall manifests itself more and more each year (anyone over 40 can attest to this truism, but of all things I found out this week I have a cataract!). Yes, on the one hand the world is falling apart at the seams and its inhabitants too. But on the other, He’s got the whole world in His hands, not a single sparrow falls to the ground apart from His plan (Matthew 10:29). Can you hold these seemingly conflicting truths in tension? Can you live each day knowing that somehow they are both 100% true?
I can. I can because sometimes God shows you in a special way how He loves you, how He knows the desires of your heart, how He hears your prayers. That big prayer I prayed? It’s still out there. It hasn’t been answered in the way I would like. But God showed me in His infinite creativity how He heard my prayer. It’s one of those things that wouldn’t translate well — it’s a great joy to me, but I don’t think it would be especially encouraging to someone else. And I honestly I hope you can relate to that. Do you have signs and wonders you know are from God, but can’t really share in detail because others wouldn’t be able to appreciate the magnitude? If you don’t have these wonders to cherish and ponder, can I ask you to look harder? Keep a journal. Keep your eyes and ears open. I believe God wants to show you how much He loves and cares for you. After all, are you not worth more than the sparrow? Jesus assures you that you are! He says, “So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows” (Matthew 10:31).