I hope you’ve had a lovely week. I have a confession to make: I’m a horrible evangelist. I can proclaim Jesus as my Lord and Savior here on my blog day after day and year after year because it’s safe. When it comes to face-to-face interactions, I’m pitifully less bold. Not only does it make me nervous, but a verse in Scripture I read this week made me realize how incredibly judgmental I am.
Not judging in terms of whether someone’s life aligns with Scripture. That’s not my issue. I don’t think “well, I would never do that.” I know myself. I know that any ounce of goodness living in me is Christ, and Christ alone. I’m not judgy like that because I know I’m a sinner saved by grace. If you truly know grace, grace precludes “I would never” judgment.
But there’s another kind of judgment: judgment of the fields. In John 4 Jesus told his disciples, “Look, I tell you, lift up your eyes, and see that the fields are white for harvest.” (verse 35). Jesus explains that some reap the harvest and others sow, but that they will rejoice together.
But here’s the thing: I do not live like I believe Him. Instead I have thoughts like, “she’s too bitter” or “his whole posture is hostile to the very existence of God.” Instead of sharing my faith in a loving way, I sometimes write people off. It’s shameful. Especially because as I grow older, I do not even have to look to Paul as the unlikeliest convert. I personally know people I would have never thought would come to know Jesus. I have prayer lists of names with staggeringly unlikely check marks beside them. And yet my judgmental ways continue.
Can you relate? Do you sometimes live like the fields are not yet white? Do you sometimes think someone is beyond God’s reach?
I want to commit to being bolder in person, more faithful in fervent prayer and unwilling to judge receptivity or readiness. The first step to healing is admitting you have a problem, right?
Heavenly Father, forgive me for failing to be the ambassador for You I am created to be. Forgive me for thinking anyone in this world is beyond your reach. Help me to be bold and loving. Help me to be faithful in sharing the good news of the Gospel. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Have a fabulous weekend sharing the hope that is in you!