Hope you’ve had a peaceful week, fending off the rush and enjoying this beautiful season. I’ve had a week that’s been mostly too busy but today I had a lovely lunch date that has been long awaited: I took Popeye’s to Sam at school. So it wasn’t the food, but still a joyful milestone of sorts. You see Sam has asked me not to come to school. I’ve offered to bring him a special lunch, cupcakes for his birthday — essentially anything he could dream up. But ever since we’ve lived in Tennessee Sam has consistently acted mortified to see me at school. It was an unexpected development since I volunteered at his old school weekly and he never once acted anything but thrilled to see me. But whatever prompted the utter humiliation, it lasted two full years. Then yesterday Sam said, in a shy and confessional tone, “You know, I would actually really like for you to come have lunch with me.”
Thankfully, outside of the hallways at school, Sam has never acted embarrassed to have me for a mother. Instead, he is pretty great about making me feel rather adored. But stil, even though I know he loves me, it did sort of sting to be shunned. But here’s the thing, when he changed his mind I couldn’t march up to that cafeteria fast enough. I love that kid. I delight in seeing him, sharing any meal with him, and learning what lunch is like at his sweet little school.
I’ve been thinking that this is an imperfect representation of how God loves us. He stands at the door and knocks. But He never barges in. He doesn’t insist on coming to lunch. Yet He delights in us and loves us with an unquenchable love, whether we acknowledge Him or not.
If we say, “God, you know, I would actually really like for you to come have lunch with me,” He always, always will. May I never ever push my Savior, the lover of my soul, away.
In Revelation, Jesus says: “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.” (3:20 ESV).
Praying that I will have ears to hear Him knocking, and that I will always open the door.